Desire

To me this past General Conference was like a New Year's.  I feel like it's given me a renewed hope and desire to change.  I hope you all were able to watch it.  I listened to one talk especially that I felt was specifically prepared for me to hear.  Isn't that phrase so cliche?  It's absolutely true, and Elder Holland affirmed this "phenomenon."

Elder Oaks spoke on desire.  This one thing is the source of great change and power to do so.  I'm not sure it's an incredibly easy thing to obtain and takes some serious pondering, reflecting, and influence from the Holy Ghost.  Most of all, as he stated, it takes labor and faith.

"The desires we act on determine our changing, our achieving, and our becoming."

- Elder Dallin H. Oaks

To be honest, I've completely disregarded my goals for awhile now.  Everything went downhill when I came down with the flu.  I just haven't been able to recover.  This past week, I realized how inspired my goals were.  I just came to a realization of how not working on them has allowed selfishness and idleness to slip back into my life (a nasty duo!).  The consequences are quite obvious and definitely not contenting.  So, how in the heck do I get back to where I was?  It takes a deeply rooted desire, one day at a time, I guess.  So, this has caused me to reflect a bit on what my original desire was and if it was deeply rooted.  I think that it was, and it was rooted in Truth.  So, I had the desire part of the equation; now I just need to put in the labor and exercise the faith.  I was pleased last night.  It was 11:00 and I picked up my laptop to blog to you guys.  Instead, I decided "No, I can do that in the morning."  I put it down and just went to sleep, and here I am.  That to me was a triumph and a step back onto the path of attaining my goals.

I've got great friends.  You care about me, and want to see me succeed, and that means so much.  Thank you.  I hope you, too, have great desires inside.  I hope they are rooted in Truth, rooted in the gospel of Jesus Christ.  "...yea, even if ye can no more than desire to believe, let this desire work in you, even until ye believe..." (Alma 32:27)  And as it works in us, it will grow and we will see the Truth blossom into great joy.
I mean those words so much.

Desire, my friends.